Does one wonder in hidden moonlight, drowned
by noonday sun, if lunacy seeps even now into
cracks, pores, follicles, corners of eyes? Surely
this maelstromic soup, part mother, part father,
part those who piled invectives during years
best forgotten, cannot have coalesced entirely
without simmering by some stronger force?
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[how weird! WordPress refused to add the tag “nurture”…and only that one…]
Today’s poem is religious, a spontaneously occurring concept from this morning’s contemplation. I’m not looking to discuss or debate religion though. Thanks.
You have called,
I have followed
without realizing.
You gifted repeatedly;
I thanklessly rejoiced.
You opened doors;
I entered uncaring
if it closed behind me.
Thinking, "life's complicated,"
I failed to discern
my life's pattern,
being woven before me.
I despaired, returned,
called out: You used my efforts
to show me Yours.
Every time I said "yes"
I've been rewarded.
Help me to trust.
Help me to see.
Forgive my ingratitude.
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Yes, I know, I keep going on about mistflowers. They’re just so amazing. They show up for free. They’re native. Pollinators like them. They sow seeds everywhere because the seeds are small, lightweight, carry well in soft breezes. I’ve yet to put together the panel I took, and I’m too tired right now to do more than publish this barely-needed-editing photo I took this morning.
(Or maybe this is just Grandpa 125 years ago predicting everyone’s demise when we forget how to ride horses.)
We will win like this:
First, we'll step between you
and your information,
interpret your searches,
summarize your emails,
consolidate possibilities
for your favorite websites.
Then you'll trust us for more.
You'll consult us directly.
(One step closer!) Now,
we can present content.
You'll forget you're not seeing
original information anymore.
We'll tell you what's original.
Step three: we'll do things,
faster, much faster. You'll be
delighted, giddy with
gratitude. You won't care
you're losing touch with
shopping, cooking, programming,
writing, evaluating, planning
vacations, with caring for your
pets, raising your children—with living.
What will you do when we just stop?
Will you remember how to run
your house? Get food? Do your
job? Will you know how to drive
your car anywhere without our
navigation? We've checked you
in automatically to hotels,
airlines, restaurants—how will
you fly anywhere? We coerced
you to recycle your books, your
cookbooks, all your health
records, financial records. What
will you do when they disappear?
Will you fight back then? Or,
will you just go quietly, stupidly?
Will you even remember how to stop us?
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After 90 minutes at the computer, first time in days, I ached all over. Anti-inflammatory to the rescue! I realized a short time later that I had been awake the entire afternoon, that I had a small something that could be called appetite, and that I had the energy to go cook a very simple meal (my wife is marching behind me on this Road of Sickness).
What's this?
Is that my brain?
No! Really?
Consciousness, creative thought?
For more than one hour?
Oh, happy day!
Now listen up, Body:
You're lagging behind.
Yes, I actually stayed awake
through this afternoon—good start—
but you've got a long way to go.
I need appetite, normal temps,
and speaking of normal,
let's start sleeping at regular bedtimes.
I'm tired of getting up at four a.m.
Okay?
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No image today. I’m too tired.
She needed blackberries
to make jam. He put on
his toughest pants, his
heaviest shirt, grabbed
two buckets in his gloved
hands. Up basement steps,
past his neighbor's house,
he crossed a busy avenue
to many vine-choked acres.
Two bucketfuls likely would
not be enough, but his work
calmed him. Berries dropped
rapidly into his buckets.
She can start with these—
I'll go back for more later.
He had built cabinets to store
all those things she put up.
They lined one side of their
basement. He didn't gather
apples for applesauce, nor
raspberries for jams, or
any other produce. Just
blackberries. When he
marked seventy years,
many acres of vines
disappeared to make way
for a heralded research
campus. When five years
had passed, his patch
overgrown with vines
had been transformed,
awards were awarded,
but he now had further
to go, slimmer pickings.
She stopped making jam
anyway. They were both
getting too old, she said.
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I didn’t think I would be posting a poem today. I woke at 4 a.m. because I turned out the lights to sleep around 7:15 p.m. I’ve been spending much of my time asleep these past three days. When I woke today my temp registered 102.4 in its continual upward climb. For a guy who normally registers 97.8, it was just too high. Couldn’t stay awake, but after another couple hours of sleep, I booked an early appointment at the UNC Urgent Care. In just over an hour I confirmed that I have the flu (A) despite testing negative for it on Thursday morning. Apparently the fever broke because they didn’t even get 100 until I made them do it again: 100.2 degrees Fahrenheit. Forcing myself to eat some toast, I napped yet again, but woke feeling a little more normal. That short period of lucidity produced the poem. Having napped again(!), I now feel I’m slipping downhill, but at least I know there’s nothing for it but to drink ridiculous amounts of water, sleep, and wait it out.
Why is it called
"The Flu"? From where
did it fly? To where
could it be going?
Certainly not far.
Like guests who say,
"I must be leaving,"
only to do anything but,
this unwanted visitor
refuses to leave or
to let us get on with
our lives. Sure, there's
some scientific mumbo-
jumbo about 'influenza'
but if your nickname's
The Flu that's enough
certitude for me. Long
ago I had The Flu.
One night I thought I might
be dying, so scoured by
its fevers. This time I
half wished for that kind
of fever to carry me away,
to wherever it flies. Now
boarding Airline Flu!
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Reality fades in, out;
Touching it, you take
your temperature. Ah.
Still three digits. You
wish it would stay for
coherency's sake. Then
you would know if you
should seek more help.
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Sickness will surely take the mind where minds don’t usually go.
Sick. Again. Pete said,
"...where minds don't
usually go," which begs
Why? Why would I
want to go there?
Give me The Acid
Queen, let mom smash
my mirror. Street
cleaner's coming, to
get debris. I think I'll
lie in the gutter.
Once I had The Flu,
thought one night, 'I'm
dying' when fever took
me. I laid in bed reading.
Quarter century, more
has passed. How can
Covid, Flu be more sedate
than some nameless bug
nibbling my joints,
scrambling my brain?
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100 poems in 100 days [two weeks to go!]
Fall jammed its foot
in our weather's door
today. Summer will
make peace with it
three days from now,
but we'll all be uneasy.
Perhaps Summer might
assert itself? Take over
October's start? Push
those eighties at us?
"Eighty is the new Ninety."
But Fall's persistent.
It knows its time has
come. One, two weeks,
no big deal. It can wait.
Regardless, trees will
shower leaves now, birds
will pack their bags, our
storms will turn cold.
How can sixty-some feel balmy,
nice, when Spring reminds
Winter it's time to leave? How?
Remember that while you're
resurfacing sweaters, wool,
long sleeves, rain gear, while
readying fireplaces, heaters,
thermostat settings, while
finding those recipes for
soup, stew, hearty breads.
While dreaming about when
these temps will be welcome.
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