A bit trite and a bit short, but this will have to do today. An Irish stout has designs on my mind!
August 2026
Adrift, but found my course plotted without my ken, without approval. Yet when my course pointed me to where I'm now, I found this port, suited me just fine.
Twice in two days my wife has caused me to take a good photograph. Yesterday it was, “whale! there!” and I snapped the photo that graced today’s poem. It was one of those point-shoot-hope-you-have-it-pointed-right kind of things. Today almost occurred the same way. She pointed to a swooping bird and asked, “Is that an eagle?” Yes, it was, and thankfully I resisted the urge to zoom in with the telephoto. I don’t think I could have captured the bird otherwise. Better to zoom in the editing phase. (Thank you, digital darkroom!) Not that I didn’t zoom, but the above photo represents only 50-60% of the original.
In another poem I’ll try to convey this weird feeling I have that a pretty decent vacation isn’t going that well. This moodiness infects me on quite a few vacations, and I joyfully welcome all the times I just seem to go with the flow and have a great time, despite inevitable setbacks. It seems enjoying yourself takes precedent to enjoying the vacation. Today, I’m just trying to capture today.
Gray whale tail off Yaquina Head, north of Newport, OR. August 2026.
Another paradisiacal day
surrounded by memories, good, bad, indifferent. golf, tantalizing money suck; couldn't do it now anyway. constant gray weather wearing her down, then wearing me down. whales! no, just rocks. but birds: familiar, strange, tiny, grand. trip's end trips up more often than not. "What do you want to do?" "I dunno. What do you?" Bumper-to-bumper others live out their dream while we duck into breweries. No dinner plans almost equals no dinner. "What should we do tomorrow?"
I wasn’t going to publish this, but I have nothing else to post.
“Come,” they say, “let us get wine, let us fill ourselves of strong drink; and tomorrow will be like this day, great beyond measure.”
—Isaiah 56:12
Everybody has plans until they get hit for the first time.
—Mike Tyson’s original quote, 1987
I didn't have plans, assumed life just carried on unchanging at its core. Her
"I want out"
paralyzed me, uprooted me from where I'd planted myself: in challenging soil, yet gamely trying. She saw it similarly, acted where I could not: shook my dust from her sandals, moved on.
A younger she healed me or I healed myself while healing her, perhaps, unable to address what drove her to like me at all. "Rapacious" said those gossips around me. "You lucky bastard" from some friends.
We parted semi-friends permitting my truer healing with my truer partner, this time with eyes open, no longer encumbered by thinking tomorrow mimics today. No longer presuming it will last. No longer secure: I take nothing for granted, stay present today instead of presuming tomorrow.
Man, I hurt. My accident of three weeks ago has left me two stiff knees, broken bones in both forearms, assorted pain I think is more broken bones in my hands and wrists, and perhaps a strained tendon in the ankle which rolled. My shoulder hurts from what I suspect is bursitis, and if I told you how it occurred doing nothing you would shake your head. The minor but ever-present ache in my right hip seems almost superfluous at this point. All of this inspired this poem.
August 2026.
New pains attack daily. Old ones settle in like fringe relatives who won't leave. Memories don't fail, they crowd each other out. Challenges also pile up, sapping desire to grapple 'yet again' with those never- ending tasks which repeat.
But....
Small moments harbor poignancy unfelt in youthful years. Sunsets seem more magical, plants more interesting. Good meals sustain constant pleasure. Music, books span decades! Undoable projects, now doable. Time? Alternately your friend, your enemy.
It’s…a poem. Conceived while driving 35mph around turns, barely speeding up on a short straightaway, then braking for the next set of chicanery.
Rumble Strip
Rumble, grumble, rumble strip. Tell me I've transgressed. Painted lines define my limits but frankly, I protest. Sometimes you hide between those lines, sometimes you sit right on them. We won't discuss your shoulder twin who keeps me on all roads. On this mountain highway, full of twists, of turns, it's not too likely I'll nod off, bored, but still you're stern. Worse than my car's lane-keeping notes, which shrilly scold just me, you warn each transgressing car so non-discriminately. I'll mention briefly how you blind when rain sits in your grooves: when puddles bounce bright sunshine into my eyes--so rude. In short, your presence seems quite useless on this twisting mountain road. Why don't you haunt our cities, and quit this useless scold.
colors add nothing to dim lighting dark wood panels evoking creepy scenes of disciplinary sessions. Spa-like ambiance collides with strict Catholic teachings. "how many days will you be staying with us?" Bars (plural)? Sure, tolerated then, now. Amoral 'cosmic travelers'? More problematic. Why wonder about your nightly bill when surrounded by such groovy wonderfulness?
Stuck on this raft of my own making. Floating life's river, ostensibly like you but it's not great over here. It's not 'copacetic' or 'hopeful'. I'm hitting shoals while you sail freely. This stretch doesn't measure up.
This one’s a definite work in progress and likely an opening act for something much larger, perhaps joined to another couple I’ve written lately.
Looking SW at Vantage, WA. Look closely and maybe you can see the Columbia River. Perhaps you can see the bridge for I-90 across the bridge? Surely you can see it! It’s a half-mile long, right there in the middle of the photo. How about the ridges on the opposite side of the river? Photo unretouched. August 2026.
"Smoke 'em if you've got them," and baby, do we. Fires ravage more than brush, trees, meadows. Fires ravage lives, plans, communities. Where smoke lies, fires burn: why don't I see smoke in my mirror each morning? Where's smoke as I gaze on my love? Doesn't smoke envelop me when when I read or hear headlines? How can I see out of my car, encountering those who lack driving skills? How can we see our dawn when fires surround us? Our world's on fire, yet we bemoan smoke.
Everything poetries around me. Words pool at my ankles, crowd my shoulders, cry, "Use me! Use me!" Barely can I focus on those here before another set taps me on my shoulder to get my attention. I'm a stenographer in this crowded room of strange voices.