For several weeks I’ve written, re-written, and re-re-written a difficult piece about my father. Its point still eludes me. I fear several things: I’ve attempted to describe something, but I’m only describing it superficially; I’ve selected an inferior topic to one which begs to be heard; or perhaps what I’m writing about doesn’t rise to worthiness. This has delayed my promise to myself to post one piece of writing about my father every Sunday. It’s been like attempting to grasp a wriggling fish. I shall continue to rant to the air, to myself, to my wife—heck, to the birds on the grass—about this, and hope it gels in my mind and in my words.
Until then I’ll post a few photos, and maybe I’ll write something less weighty, something which elicits a few chuckles or wry reactions. Yes. That would be it.
all the voices in my head 
I understand how you feel about wrangling with the thought while waiting for the correct words – composition – story to present itself and open the writing flood gates. I have been wrangling with an idea for a post for most of this year to date, and I am still no closer to writing it than when the thought first occurred to me.
I write better when I think about it less.
Still, for me, I must write *something* or the gears will grind to a halt. Therefore, I have taken to writing weekly summary of what genealogical research I have accomplished over the past week and posting it to my l research group. I’ve been doing this since the beginning of 2025, usually on Sunday evenings. I try to keep it to one or two pages at most (one page at best) and I try to cover three topics.
Eventually, my thoughts will come together and I will sit down and write my post and finally get it out of my head, but until that time, I will keep honing the writing blade with my weekly research updates.
Patience lad, your story will eventually work its way out of your brain.
That sounds like such a challenging but important journey. Sometimes the hardest stories take the longest to find their true shape. It’s okay to pause and let the words settle in your mind before they flow onto the page. Keep trusting the process—you’ll get there.