For several weeks I’ve written, re-written, and re-re-written a difficult piece about my father. Its point still eludes me. I fear several things: I’ve attempted to describe something, but I’m only describing it superficially; I’ve selected an inferior topic to one which begs to be heard; or perhaps what I’m writing about doesn’t rise to worthiness. This has delayed my promise to myself to post one piece of writing about my father every Sunday. It’s been like attempting to grasp a wriggling fish. I shall continue to rant to the air, to myself, to my wife—heck, to the birds on the grass—about this, and hope it gels in my mind and in my words.
Until then I’ll post a few photos, and maybe I’ll write something less weighty, something which elicits a few chuckles or wry reactions. Yes. That would be it.
Eastern honeybee (?) on just opened sunflower. July 2025.
I feed birds, mostly black-oil sunflower seeds. This year it looks like I’ll through about 400 pounds of them. Apparently one got planted in our newly landscaped front yard, and there amid many of the similar-spiky Obedient plants was this lone sunflower. I love sunflowers. Therefore, I got pretty irritated when something, probably a deer, nipped off the top where a bud had been forming. The joke’s on the deer, though. By trimming the plant, it put up TWO stalks from where it had been lopped, each of which had buds…until one burst open on Independence Day.
…or crepe myrtles if you prefer…seem ubiquitous here in Raleigh, NC. From what I read and hear they’re throughout the South, though I haven’t paid enough attention while driving through our neighbor states. Crape myrtles take their time, slowly becoming substantial trees of a type called thicket trees. They can be well-tended and trained, as this one is:
With care, the trunks grow together. Raleigh, NC. July 2025.
Usual care involves letting them grow as they will, but pruning suckers and sometimes trimming the tops to shape them:
Crape myrtle with usual thicket look and showing white blooms. Raleigh, NC. July 2025.
Crape myrtles are everywhere here. The photo above is across the street from the first photo. The thicket-trunked myrtle in the foreground has a substantial myrtle right to its left, the one with a more substantial trunk. Follow the sidewalk and you’ll see two more, smaller (younger) crape myrtles flowering. These last two demonstrate the variety of the approximately 50 species of crape myrtle (or are a particular cultivar of one):
Younger, different crape myrtles. Raleigh, NC. July 2025.
Crape myrtle are maintained by the City of Raleigh in the decorative medians:
Three “City” crape myrtles at the end of my street. Raleigh, NC. July 2025.
To me the Ultimate Crape Myrtle lives in my neighbor’s yard. Its branches extend from the edge of the sidewalk and tower over her house. It’s at least 30 feet tall. Someone appears to have pruned a few suckers in its youth, but mostly it’s been left to its own.
Crape myrtle in neighbor’s yard. Our white car and yard in the background. Raleigh, NC. July 2025.
And then there are our crape myrtles. Ours were planted sometime between 2007 and 2014 (using Google Maps Street View), with the most likely time frame being 2010-2012, a period when the former owners rapidly changed the landscaping and interior of the house. The myrtles probably were purchased as saplings, and have doubled in height for the eight years we’ve lived here. For reasons I suspect have to do with amount of sunlight and my utter lack of any care beyond occasional pruning, they flower very late. I suspect sunlight because my other neighbor has three, also near the sidewalk, which haven’t bloomed yet either. In the photos above you might have noticed most of the myrtles nearing the end of their blooming period. Ours?
Our two crape myrtles, either side of the driveway, not blooming. July 2025.
But here’s the thing: though closely identified with the American South, they are not native to it. To quote the NC State University’s Extension Gardener website, “[Crape myrtle] is native to the Philippines, Japan and central Himalayas to southern China and Indochina.” Our whole move the past 12 months has been to replace everything in the front yard with native plants. (note that in the photo above) After a year of debate, and many years of saying, “Maybe they will bloom better when they get bigger,” we’ve decided to replace them. (Sorry, former owners. Consider it payback for removing that big tree in the front yard and not properly having the stump ground. I nearly broke my ankle in that mess many a time.) On one side will be an ‘Amethyst’ witch hazel which blooms in winter and very early spring. (Photo here.) On the other side will be a serviceberry. It mimics the look of a crape myrtle with the multi-trunk growth, but it will provide berries for birds and other critters.
Eight-point buck meandering through our trees. July 2025.
Our street, above, regularly sees traffic of 35 mph and above now that a lot of drivers have discovered it’s a better-than-nothing shortcut from one arterial to another. (Raleigh arterials commonly have a 45 mph speed limit.) It amazed us therefore to see this buck come down the slope of the yard across our street, then cross the street around 9 a.m. and continue downhill between our houses. Here’s a lower-resolution close-up from the photo above:
Eight points!. July 2025.
We lost sight of him for a minute, then my wife spotted him in the back corner of the neighbor’s yard. He was in no hurry. He’s eating some leaves there…
Eastern carpenter bee working the beebalm. June 2025.
I opened the month shooting photos of the beebalm with a swallowtail butterfly on it. This photo is from the same set. The swallowtails, bumblebees, and little tiny bees I haven’t identified yet all had to work around the behemoths of the flowers, the carpenter bees. At 1.25-1.50 inches (or more!) they pretty much go where they want to. Now the beebalm has slowly dropped all those fuchsia-colored petals. (Or are they petals? I don’t know much about plants.) All that remains are the ball in the center, still suspended on those long stems. Our new visitors love these: goldfinches. They flit from flower to flower, their nearly weightless bodies hardly making the stems bend at all. It seems too soon for seeds, but what do I know?
Summer temperatures, documented a few days back, will continue for the near term future. Americans look forward to celebrating Independence Day on Friday, the 249th of our country’s existence. In these muddled times, I wonder what that will bring. Meanwhile, the business of life marches on, from the mundane (it’s Gather the Garbage Day) to the inconvenient (workers coming to work on the leak in the bathroom shower) to the calm and simple (my wife returned from a coastal sojourn yesterday afternoon; this day will be our first together in a week).
I’m partially through my next installment about my father, Howard Bliss Pilcher, but it will not be published today. My goal is “every Sunday” but this week’s post is a sober and kinda negative thing about him. Regardless of how deserved that viewpoint may be, I want to pair it with another installment which is more upbeat and entertaining. Instead I offer this portrait of my father’s family from 1938. This photo was taken in Minnesota which makes it a year prior to the family’s move to Havre, MT. Based on family values, I’m estimating it would have been a formal thing around Easter because of the importance of that day for a minister. My father is nearing 13 if so, and I’m pretty sure my uncle will be 10 soon. My grandparents are in their early 40’s.
Left to right: The Rev. Howard “Bliss” Pilcher, sons Howard and Gordon, and Esther (Dahl) Pilcher. Edina, MN, 1938.
In the late 1960’s I listened to Barbra Streisand on a transistor radio the size of a cheap paperback. She sang “People who need people are the luckiest people in the world.” I never understood that, emotionally at least. Intellectually I valued it and wanted to be one of those persons. I still do….but….
I don’t like people. There, it’s out. Liking people is inherent to my religious faith. We are supposed to like all people as caricatures of God, as images of God, or at the very least, as created beings who have as much claim to the Kingdom as anyone else. But…I do not gravitate toward people as an instinctive or cultured trait. I’ve known people who show themselves to be introverts, but they put on a social face, forcing themselves to reach out, building a practice that becomes instinctual. I’m not one of those, at least not in most milieus.
It’s more nuanced than it sounds. I like individual examples of “people” just not People in general and certainly not together in a group. Nothing tops my list of activities to be avoided like a cocktail party or “open house”. A group of people in a social situation where I know only one or maybe two of them makes me nervous, shuts me down, inspires my feet to start edging toward the exit, my lips mumbling an excuse to the host. Or that nervousness gets channeled into a babbling energy, creating The Entertainer—usually to my later embarrassment and dismay. After decades of experience with these situations—which mercifully I’ve kept to a limited number of occasions—I’ve learned some coping techniques. Mostly I avoid them unless I know a goodly handful of the people and like those who will be there. When I misjudge I desperately cast about for someone I know at least casually and bother them for as long as I can.
Oh boy, another wedding reception. Great for them, not so great for me.
I’ve learned how to maintain a veneer of sociability. I’m verbally talented after all. Talking to an individual about something they like makes you likeable. I’ve a wide range of interests and I’m well-read. I can usually relate to folks. But I’m uncomfortable.
Thankfully wedding receptions have beer, and this one had photogenic grounds to keep me away from all those people.
Perhaps this explains my delight in this blog, and in others’. We skip the social chit-chat on these things (usually). We do sometimes utter the banal (“I’m so happy for you” or “Getting that disease is so horrible!”), but mostly we utter honest statements because the beauty and scourge of the Internet lies in its anonymity for those who post. It’s why I’ve chosen to blog under my actual name. That seems contradictory, but it’s not. Most of you know my name, but you don’t actually know me except through these writings—the same way I know you only through what you post. Is it bold or stupid to put my own name? I’d prefer to think “honest” in that I will utter my opinions and not hide behind total anonymity. But y’all know me from a load of coal: except for two of you, and that has inhibited some of the things I would post, which illustrates the difference I’m talking about, this being known but anonymous simultaneously.
Where all of this blather leads turns out to be unexpected. I do need people, but just not the ones who mouth platitudes, clichés, and banal statements about the weather. Symbolic language has its place, but in a social setting it makes for a symbolic encounter signifying nothing. Sure, I can do it, but the sheer uselessness of it bothers me considerably. This need for people has been reinforced (again) by spending a week alone while my wife visits the NC coast with her friend. I’m reminded of living in my head like I did so many years. I believe we all need people to listen to us. That there are so many diaries and journals of people famous and otherwise reveals a deep need for others to understand what they’re going through. I guess I am a “people who need people” but only deep down and selfishly.
Needing and caring for people remains a distinct view of my religious faith. Listen to people with care. They need that. Yes. But so do I. The adroit, talented person knows when to listen and when to ask for a listener. I, however, refer you to the beginnings of this post. I do not possess those talents. I seek for listeners, but not to be the listener. Reminded again and again of my failure in the social arena, I withdraw. This is my learning path, perhaps one of several.
Second from left=outdoors. Raleigh, NC. June 2025.
The photo above shows the indoor and outdoor temps/humidity before the heat dome here in Raleigh slightly broke. My indoor display for my rudimentary weather station tells the tale: it’s less than 45 minutes since sunrise. Outdoors on the deck immediately behind my living room it’s already in the 80’s and the humidity at that temp is still 83%, which boggles my mind given that it’s a relative humidity indicating how much moisture the air could hold. It implies the dew point is in the mid-70’s. And disturbingly, this usually runs below the official temperature a few miles west of here at the airport. The deck is shaded, the sensor is located up by the house, and our neighborhood boasts many tall trees unlike the openness of the airport environment. The A/C had been running all night, hence the basement temperature (on the far right) reading less than 65 degrees. The other two temps are in upstairs locations. Welcome to the Southern Summer, boy!
…or “Reader, beware”. Today I’m reading a lengthy piece on why major appliances seem to break down so much (yes, really), which was posted on a popular buying guide website (rhymes with Spire Sputter). It’s an interesting article up until I read this to support a statement about appliances being “even cheaper than they were 50 years ago”:
In 1972, Sears sold a clothes washer for $220 and a dryer for $90, per 2022 research by AARP Magazine. That’s about $2,389 in 2025, adjusted for inflation. Today you can get a washer-and-dryer pair on sale from Sears for around $1,200.
And suddenly my BS meter started pinging. Okay, I’ve got a near-degree in economics and a head for rudimentary statistics. I also was 18 years old in 1972, so I’ve got a feel for that end of the timeline cited. But still….this just seems to be wrong on so many levels. Let’s assume the poorly worded second sentence means that the washer/dryer combo cost $310 (220+90) and in 2025 it would be $2,389. That’s almost exactly 7.7 times more. In 1973 (close enough) I took a fringe job at a hospital which paid $2.65/hour including the shift differential I got for working swing shift. There were a few down-on-their-luck old bachelors who managed to survive on that in scuzzy little apartments where they drank the cheapest beer they could find while eating the cheapest pizza you could buy at a grocery store. Doing the math, that’s $106 for a 40-hour week, and $5,512 for a 52-week year. And 7.7 times that is…$42,442.40!! I sincerely doubt that I could find a menial job which pays $20.41/hour.
Just to add some more perspective, during the almost four years I worked as a reporter from 1977-1981, I earned from $200/week to $250/week. I actually was looking at another job in the $10K range when I said, “this is nuts, I can barely live on this after four years? And now a daily wants to pay me the same thing?” After an indiscriminate raise to $250/week I agreed with the new publisher that $225 was more reasonable, so let’s use $11,700/year. That was the beginning of 1979. I think this is ridiculously conservative, but let’s halve that inflation factor to 3.85 and see what it gets us…whoa! $45,045? For a beginning reporter? I doubt it. Unfortunately I can’t compare this to weekly newspapers because that industry has gone through a complete upheaval over the past 20 years and I don’t think many exist in 2025.
I could rant on and on about any number of indicators you could look at. My only point here is to think about the numbers you see. You don’t have to be adept at mental arithmetic as I guess I am. (It’s what my family and friends say.) It’s nearly a no-brainer, though, to look at $220 and $2389 to see you’ve gone from a 3-digit number to a 4-digit number and they both start with 2. That suggests a factor of ten; add a zero to the $220 figure to see and yup, $2200 is getting pretty close to $2389. Then you might figure out like I did that the author means for you to add in the dryer, but by then you’re in the ballpark. You’ve only performed rudimentary arithmetic, nothing strenuous, and nothing you need to haul out your phone’s calculator app for. (Of course, if you really like the ever-listening digital assistant and haven’t turned off its spying, you could just say, “Hey [insert name], what’s two-thousand-eighty-nine divided by two-hundred-and-twenty?”)
Figures never lie, but liars figure, salespeople figure you won’t check, well-meaning but not overly ambitious reporters won’t, and they’re okay with that because they don’t think their readers will check either. And I’m leaning into that: I considered a different measure which actually supports what was reported—but I didn’t include it because it doesn’t support me!
all the voices in my head 